Anticipation

I'm putting myself out there but I can't care. I'm so full of anticipation and passion for what the Lord has spoken that I'm willing to look like a flake that doesn't hear God.

Last Thursday we started the process to get Miles a wheelchair. The measurments have been taken, insurance will be billed any day and the colors of the wheelchair have been picked out. I'm sayng that the Lord told me yesterday that Miles was not going to be needing the wheelchair by the time it comes. Jesus Christ will heal my son before that chair is delivered to my house.

I've been feeling this anticipation for awhile now. I've just been expecting to walk in on Miles and him be running around. If you were to see him this morning it would be hard to agree with me but I'm telling you the Lord is about to do something Extraordinary!

Yesterday afternoon I was praying that God would begin to prepare me for he's about to do. I prayed that he would prepare our church for what we're supposed to do to thank Him. Also, we need wisdom about who we're supposed to contact. I don't know. I was just praying about details that I've never dared to dream about and then I felt the Lord tell me about how Miles was not going to need that wheelchair because he was going to be healed by then. Yesterday during "naptime" I couldn't sleep because I was so full of excitment and wonder.

What will it be like when I see my son running around the house and chasing my other children? Will I laugh, cry, fall on my face, scoop him all up and dance before the Lord? Who will I call first? How long will it be before I grasp all that God has done? How will our church worship as they see "their boy" walk in front of the church? How many will I get to tell that, "It was all worth it!"?

There have been so many "extra" people in my home the last couple of weeks and when I see them I just think about how they are here for a purpose because that's one more person and "their people" that will be able to testify to the miracle that God is about to do in Miles.

The wheelchair could take 6 weeks to a couple of months depending on insurance. I will enjoy my baby for a few more weeks until he turns into a little boy.

Lord, Make Me More Like A Child.

I was putting Miles in his standing frame one day not too long ago. I asked Joey to stay with Miles and to tell him a story while I finished a project in the other room. When I came back Joey told me that he told Miles the story about why he has to use the standing frame. Then Joey asked me if I knew that story. I told him that I was pretty sure I did but I still wanted him to tell me the story.
Joey told me that he told Miles that he died in his sleep and God raised him from the dead, and he got some brain damage and that's why he uses the standing frame.
I actually didn't know that Joey knew Miles had brain damage. We haven't tried to hide anything from him but I honestly thought Joey just thought of Miles as still being a baby. I told him that I didn't know that he knew all that. Then I asked him how he feels when he sees Connor (my nephew who is 2 weeks younger than Miles) running all around the house and Miles isn't.
Joey looked at me so seriously and asked, "Don't you know what happened to Miles is special? Do you know anyone else this has happened to?". I had to admit that I didn't and what happened to Miles was special.
This is how a 7 year old processes Miles. He doesn't think about what Miles can do or not do. He thinks of Miles as a special boy touched by the very hand of God. He's proud of why his brother has to use the standing frame. Lord, make me more like a child!

This Week In The Wilson Home

Monday:
Joey and Spencer up and ready for school.
No Warm ups for them this week for lunch so it's Lunchables all week long. I cringed at this decision last Friday when I was grocery shopping. I know I could pack their lunch all week but I just knew it wasn't going to happen. Each Lunchable cost $1.74 and I asked myself if someone came into my home every morning this week and offered me $3.48 in cash to pack their lunch I would probably do it every time, but since I knew that wasn't going to happen I threw the Lunchables in the cart.
Francesca over at 10:00 to put Miles in his standing Frame. That went very well. He stayed in it at least 25 minutes.
11:00 Joey and Spencer had an award program at school so I packed up the other three kids and we went to that.
Right now the kids are decorating shirts outside with paint for Clown/Silly Clothes Day.
Tonight I'm taking dinner to my brother and his wife because they had a baby and it's my turn. It's also my twin nephews 1st birthday so I've got to pick up a couple of birthday cupcakes to go with the dinner.
No Wow tonight for me.

Tuesday:
Joey has swim day at school. That means $4, sunscreen and a towel. This also means that I'm letting someone else take my son swimming. I never like this idea. And I have to send a dessert.
It's also Clown Day at Joey & Spencer's school. What does it mean?
At 10:00 Ginny comes over to do "Prayer Therapy" on Miles. She goes in his room with him and prays...honestly I'm not sure what she does. I'm not in there.
Plant watering day.
Call Mary to remind her to take dinner to Charlie and Pauline.
House cleaner comes so I have to be out of the home from 12:00-4:00.

Wednesday:
Craft Day at Joey and Spencer's school. They try to pack in a lot for the last week at school! Again, more Lunchables.
Read closely at this one...
9:00 Todd comes over for Occupational Therapy for Miles for 30 minutes.
10:00 Vision Therapy for Miles with Mindy for 30 minutes.
10:30 Rachel comes over to put Miles in his standing frame for as long as he will stay.
Remind Jennifer to take food to C&P tonight.
7:00 Life Group
Here's the kicker...from 10:00 to 4:00 I will not be here!!!! I won the Mother's Day Spa Makeover at Athena's from KGNZ so I get to be at the spa all day long! Randy will be taking over my job during this time. He has not been to any of Miles' therapy sessions by himself. This will be a first for him. I picked a great day to be gone. I will be recieving a manicure, pedicure, spa facial, 90 massage, my hair done and lunch! I cannot explain how exciting this is!

Thursday:
This is clean up day at J&S school. They have to wear old clothes so they can clean stuff.
Also, I have to send 30 Pb&J sandwhiches to school for the Kindergarten Graduation.
9:00 JoBeth the physical therapist comes over and she will have a medical equipment guy with her. We will all be talking about Miles' wheelchair needs. They will measure his little body and make decisions about his chair and all it's parts. Last Thursday they came and I got really overwhelmed about this process. I'm hoping to do better this time. The medical guy went over a million things that I just wasn't ready for. I didn't want to hear the word Lumbar one more time.
10:00 Melody goes to the Library with her Grandma Jody.
2:00 Go to Spencer's school and help decorate cafeteria for the graduation reception. A teacher asked me to help decorate. She said she didn't want to ask me because I have a million other kids but she did anyway.
Remind Mike and Kim to take C&P dinner.
7:00 My Spencer Boy's Kindergarten Graduation!!!
After Grad. he wants to go to Golden Corral. This is his favorite place to eat. He loves getting to eat all the desserts he wants.

Friday:
Last day of school for J&S.
Zoo day for Spencer. Last Lunchable day.
House cleaner comes from 8-12. Everyone must be gone.
The boys are at school, and I take the girls and Miles to Grandma Shirley's.
During that time it's grocery shopping, errand and tanning day.

Saturday:
5:00 neice in law's graduation

Sunday:
10:00 Church
6:00 Core Service at church.

You are so good Lord!

Yesterday was an awesome day in my walk with Christ. I got to baptize "my girl" in the lake. It was so amazing. I felt so honored to be able to baptize her. J. was the first person I've ever baptized. It was so neat that 6 girls/women walked out into the lake together for baptisms. The Children's Church was represented, the Youth/College was represented and Adult/Life Groups were represented. The whole thing was amazing and special to me. After we were all done and J and I were drying off she said, "I feel so good. I just can't explain it. I just feel so full". That's what the Lord does. He makes us so full like nothing else on this earth can. We can have temporary highs and highlights, but even those things are not completely fulfilling. When the Holy Spirit fills you up then everything else drops in comparison. Thank you Jesus!

My Nemesis

I have discovered every mother's nemesis. For Superman it's kryptonite & Lex Luther. For Mr. Incredible it's that little guy formally known as Buddy. I can't remember his "bad superhero name". For Mother's it's WHINING! Every mother hates whining more than changing diapers, long nights with loads of laundry and signing school folders every day for 9 months of the year. None of these compare to the torture of whiny requests, complaints and demands.
What could be done about the daunting terrorism that takes over my home every day after 3:00? When school is out even my peaceful non-whining girls are taken over and transformed into super-sized whiners!
Wait a minute...as I sit here and think about this strategically I think I may have found the perfect weapon. I've heard the phrase, "You fight fire with fire". Well, I guess the only way to fight WHINING is with WINE! It's now 1:19 so I have until 3:00 to tank up. In My Fair Lady, Eliza Doolittle's Dad calls it "liquid protection". This is all making since now.
Of course I'm kidding. I don't think wine would help. Plus, it's nasty and expensive. I will have to keep thinking on how to defeat this ugly tomenter of mine.