Here's what's up with me

Update on me and mine:

I still volunteer at the school on Mondays and Fridays. I still love it. I know I will be a great teacher someday. I’ve had the pleasure of watching Jocie grow in wisdom and stature, and favor with God and man. Being able to watch her in Kindergarten fulfilled a desire of my heart that I didn’t even know I had.

Speaking of teaching…I will be going back to Hardin Simmons this fall. I have a past due balance of $2500 that I need before then. I’m not having any trouble believing that the Lord is going to take care of that minor detail! SCHOOL PAID OFF!!!! Honestly, money isn’t the thing I’m worried about school. I’m mainly concerned if I have any brain cells left to go back to school. I’ve been out of college for three years now, and I’ve exhausted my mind during that time lapse. I need the Lord to encourage me in this area! I’m excited and nervous. I like having something exciting and nervous to look forward to.

I’ve got a new diet on the horizon. I’ll have to give details later. Jennifer, don’t spoil my glory.

My husband has a lot of work right now. That’s a major major blessing. The only bad thing is that he’s really backed up and people are waiting on him. He’s been having to work more than he ever has. Time together with Randy is my love language so I’m having to work hard at not being a whiny baby! The Lord is proving to be faithful to me! I’m glad that Randy is busy, and that I’m growing in maturity in the area of my time with my husband. It’s been a long time coming.

My kids are getting older. Francesca just had another baby. I think about how far away I am from that…and yet, not far enough away from that. Joey just took his first out of town trip without me. I didn’t worry about him a bit. He had a blast. Jocie’s about to graduate from Kindergarten. Miss Melody just turned five years old. She had her first friend to spend the night with her. That was fun. Spencer’s still in love with me, but also enjoys boy stuff. He keeps me laughing and screaming at him all the time.

Miles, well, God knows I love that boy, but I’ve had a rough year dealing with his sicknesses. The poor guy has been unusually sick for months. He’s been well very few days this year. Yesterday I took him to church and went to get him prayed for at the end of the service because he had a stomach bug. The only one in our family to get it by the way! And, only a day of feeling better after getting out of the hospital with pneumonia! Crazy! Anyway, I went up to get prayer for him. While Jim and Brenda was praying over him someone came behind me and said in my ear, “Expect a miracle.” My first response was, “Yes. I do expect a miracle.” Then immediately, my thoughts went to something like, “Are you kidding me? How in the world are you going to tell me to expect a miracle? Do you know how many miracles I’ve been expecting, and I’m still in this stupid prayer line? How would you like it if I went ahead and punched you in the face, break your nose and then you can expect a miracle!” You know, something like that. All afternoon I struggled with my flesh to expect a miracle. I’ll be danged if Miles wasn’t healed yesterday of that stomach bug that he had for days! Yesterday afternoon he ate for the first time in several days. He kept it down and wanted more. He’s been feeling great today and eating well. Obviously, I can’t say that my faith healed him. My humor may have impressed the Lord and he gave me a break. What ever it was, I’m thankful.

May 7th Miles is scheduled to have that baclofen pump put in. I will remind you that it’s never been placed where they want to place it, and it’s never been done on someone so small before. PRAY! I have a peace about it that I can’t explain so I’m going along with it. I say that and then I slightly freak out. It’s a pretty big deal.

I’m wondering why it is that I started out writing about me, but it mostly is about Miles. He really is a huge part of my life. He’s my full time job. The other kids go to school and I’m home with him. I do everything for him. Just as Francesca is fully responsible for her newborn baby, I’m still fully responsible for Miles care. If anything is done for him it’s done by me. I can tell the other kids to go take a shower, or to go get dressed, but I still have to do those things for Miles. And, not just regular things, but a seemingly million more things.

My writing is, well, slow going these days. I’ve got vision for my writing, but as I heard on the radio today…It’s not enough to have vision for where you’re going. You need focus as well. Focus is something I’ve been lacking. I don’t really feel discouraged about it. I just know I’ve been having to endure extreme circumstances lately. I will get back on the writing wagon soon. The Lord will see to it.

I still haven’t had a pedicure.

My mother in law is officially employed to watch Miles now for me. She’s getting paid $7 an hour when she watches him. She’s so giddy about that. It makes me really happy! Last week she watched him for 11 hours. That $77 she made!

Hey, today I wanted to have the afternoon all to my self in my clean house so I did something I’ve never done before. I took Miles grocery shopping with me. It’s Melody’s day to spend the afternoon with Shirley, and yesterday she asked me if I wanted her to keep Miles too so I could go to the store. Well, I decided to go this morning so I could just have a quiet home for awhile. That never happens! I wasn’t sure exactly how it would all work, but where there’s a will there’s a way! I pushed Miles and pulled the cart at Wal-Mart. I got a lot of attention which I liked. I pushed and pulled all the way through the store! I bought a mountain of groceries! As I dumped all the food on the grocery belt I told the checker that it all HAD to go into one cart! She was really sweet! She ended up calling someone to take my groceries out. I was trying to protest and she said, “You can’t carry these groceries and the baby out to your car. I’ll get you some help.” I thought: How do you think I got all these groceries to your line? Anyway, I was thankful for the help. My arm that I was pulling with was starting to hurt anyway.

I miss my girlfriends! I’ve missed a lot of things lately. I’m not sure when that will change, but I hope soon.

Well, I guess that’s all I can think of right now. Let me know that you haven’t forgotten me!