Big Big Decision for me to make!
I've seriously been considering trying nurse care again. For those that remember my Psycho Nurse Experience you'll know why this is such a big deal to me. You may think that "Psycho Nurse" is too harsh of a term, but it's my blog and my experience so the name "Psycho Nurse" stays. : )
I could have been getting help from a nurse all this time, but I've enjoyed taking care of Miles. However, these last 6 months have been draining physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally. I think both Miles and I could benefit from some help. I've been debating and praying about this for a month. I've needed some things to fall into place before deciding to do it, and all of them have gone through.
Today I made a call and have at least started the process. I don't know how long it will take, but I'm not in a hurry really. I'm planning on having someone here from 8 in the morning until 12. That's 20 hours a week. It's not really going to give me any extra time, however, it will take a lot of work off my plate. I will be homeschooling Spencer while the nurse does all Miles's morning stuff. For example: catheter, enema, breathing treatments, shaker, food, bath, get him dressed, diapering, brush teeth, hand splints, medicines, standing frame lotion, clean up. I do these things in between what I'm doing with Spencer. So like I said, it won't give me extra time, but it will be so nice to have all those things done. A good thing about these hours are if the nurse can't show up for the day it's really not going to be that big of a deal. I will still be at home so I will do the work for the day.
This time I will do things differently.
Of course I will be nice, but I won't be looking for a friend.
If a nurse doesn't work out for our family I will change to another one.
If it doesn't work out then I will just do it all myself again.
I was talking to Rachel about this the other day. She said that it sounded like I was expecting them to send a Carnie to my house. : ) Hopefully that won't happen. I've just been praying. I know if it's the Lord's plan for me to have some help from a nurse that He has the perfect one planned out for us. I would love prayer about this situation. This is a really big deal for me. I would not even consider getting nurse care for a very long time. Randy and I felt extremely violated by the previous nurse. I've had time to heal and I know I'm at a place where help would make a lot of difference in my daily life.
I will keep you updated.