Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Another great thing is that my two wonderful friends Krissy and Rachel came over this morning and we laughed the morning away. It was so great. It took all the emotion out of having a nurse in my home. I felt so refreshed by having them in my home. We sat around drinking coffee and sitting on our bottoms all morning long. It was unusal and wonderful. We were an encouragment to each other and acted like silly girls. I just know the Lord set up the whole thing and I feel so thankful to Him for how personal and amazing He is. There really is no other God like our Jesus!
Of course the nurse probably thinks I don't do anything all day...tomorrow she gets a real dose of the Wilson house, but I will treasure this day in my heart. It was a real blessing to me today.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Miles' Physical Therapist has been talking to me for awhile about getting a nurse for Miles. I've also been firm on the fact that I don't need one. Well, a week and a half ago I caught myself looking up the number and calling Kinder Hearts which is a home health care center. Even while I was looking up the number I thought it was strange. I called her and everything moved so quickly. The lady on the phone made an appointment with me last week to come over and sign papers and explain the program with me. I didn't really plan on using the health care. I just thought maybe the Lord wanted her to meet Miles before he healed him. So, I let her come over and she brought another nurse with her. So, I was thinking...okay here's two more nurses to meet Miles. Well, we did all the paperwork and Leslie (the RN) explained that everyone gets denied the first time they apply for home nurse care but not to worry because they were just starting the process and they would work hard to get us some nurse hours. She told me that it takes 10 days before they deny the first time then she would go from there. Then she explained that if it didn't go through the next time then she had another program that she would try to get Miles in. So, needless to say I thought we would be trapped in paperwork until Miles was healed. That was not the case. Leslie called me TODAY to tell me that Miles was approved the first time with 20 hours a week! I was still in shock when she also told me that she already had a nurse set up and she wants to start TOMORROW!!!!! Part of me totally wanted to freak out about this whole thing, but I just had peace that the Lord was doing all of these things. Believe me, I have become familiar with paperwork hold up! It's nuts in the medical field. For me to sign papers last week and a nurse be coming to my home in the morning it can only be the Lord.
She will be here from 7:45 in the morning to 12:45 in the afternoon. I got to pick the hours. Last week I couldn't stand the thought of a nurse in my home everyday taking care of my child, but today the Lord has given me an excitement and a peace about the whole thing. I'm totally looking at this as a blessing. The nurse is going to be the nurse and I'm going to be the Mom. While she's here she will bathe him, feed him, stretch him, give him all his medicine, move him into different positions, be with him during his therapy sessions, play with him on the floor....and did I mention that for 5 hours a day I WON'T HAVE TO CHANGE HIS DIAPERS? It's true! She will take care of taping his cast for me. Oh my goodness...I'm excited for me, for Miles and for this precious woman that is going to be in my home 4 days a week and she will have a front row seat to see the Lord show off! She will be forever changed just like the rest of us.
So, that's what I've been doing today. I've been hanging out with medical people and knowing the whole time the higher purpose of our meeting. I feel like I'm partnered up with Jesus and we're on a secret mission to change the world. It feels great.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
I was getting upset at the fact that I've tried to voice my opinion about my feelings, and not receiving feedback until I think I realized what's going on. I believe I'm being led into the wilderness by the Spirit. The only things I find pleasure in are the things of the Lord. The only thing that interests me is the Word of God and hearing his voice. Everything else seems burdensome and pointless. I'm not saying that other things around me should not go on. I'm just not feeling a longing to be a part of them.
I think the Lord is preparing my spirit for all the things to come. I need to be so focused on Him that when these things take place I will be in one accord with His plan. It gives me peace to know that I'm not depressed and that I'm not always going to turn down fun. I'm just on a more serious path right now. On day one of the Breaking Free homework Beth Moore was writing about how someone came up to her at a speaking engagement and said, "I've heard you before. You used to be funnier." Her response was, "Life used to be funnier." That's me at this very moment.
Is life still good? Yes. Very Good. It's just not as funny right now. It's okay because I'm enjoying being in the presence of God in a rich and intimate way.
He spoke to me at WOW the other night. It was a beautiful voice. It was so gentle that it's still touching to me when I think about it. We're doing this series on Breaking Free and I went with my "usual suspects" lists of things I want to be free from, but when we were quiet and I was asking God what he wanted from me during this he spoke to my Spirit so sweetly! He said, "Believe Me." Again, thinking about His voice puts me at rest. Believing God was not on the usual suspect list. As a matter of fact it's the title of the last series that WOW did that I didn't go to.
What would happen if I believed every single promise in the Bible? What if I didn't try to find the loop hole in the promise? What if I didn't doubt, question or ignore what and who God is? I am going to be breaking free of Unbelief. When this happens I know the "Usual Suspect" list will follow.
Bare with me dear friends while I step back a little bit and depend on the Lord for all my confidence.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Friday, August 11, 2006
Funny thing #1
At Dillard's there's this lady that always waits on me. She's so nice. Overly nice really. She calls everyone "shoog" and "hun". I really like her. Well, today when she was cashing me out she was trying to help me in any was she could. I had the wagon which is not Dillard's friendly. I had a huge Dillard's bag, the diaper bag, my purse, I was holding Miles because he had started crying, Melody was hopping around so she asked me if she could do anything to help. I couldn't think of anything that she could do so she asked if she could zip the diaper bag-No. She asked if she could zip my purse-No. So, she watched as I piled the wagon high with all the bags and started to wheel away. She came around the counter and gave Melody a big hug and kissed her on the top of the head then said, "You be a good girl today and help your Mommy". Melody, who hardly talks to anyone outside of the home says with a big grin, "You don't say dat! Me not doing dat!". I was shocked and very tickled at the whole thing. I couldn't believe she said that. It was so uncharacteristic for her to do that.
Funny thing #2
As I have mentioned people stare at Miles in the wagon when I go places but they have not dared to ask me what happened to him. Even the nice Dillard's lady who I could tell was concerned about Miles and I didn't ask. She just looked at him sadly. This was Not the case at H-E-B today. Who would have guessed but the men at H-E-B were heart broken about Miles this morning! They were all stopping me and asking me what happened to Miles. There were no women at all that asked but there were plenty of men that did! They were falling over themselves to do nice things for Miles this morning. This one tattooed worker who had just cut himself and was looking for a band-aid stopped me and asked me what in the world happened to him. I told him that his hip was dislocated so he had to have surgery. The man had such a sad look on his face then he asked me how old Miles was. I told him a year and a half and he got a little choked up and said, "I have a year and a half son at home." Then he ran over and got a balloon and tried to hand it to Miles. He didn't take it from the man of course so I just told the man he was doped up at the moment. I couldn't break the guy's heart any further. Then, another man worker heard us talking and came over and gave Miles a ton of "H-E-B Buddy Bucks" which are gold to my kids. Little Melody was standing by me like, "Hey, where's my stuff". The guys ended up giving her some stuff too. Anyway, the whole thing was so funny! Even on the way in an older man stopped me to ask about Miles. He acted a lot like Jim Becker. I made sure and gave him the right answer so he didn't try to beat me up.
So now I'm curious. I'm going to keep taking note on how many women verses men ask me about Miles during these cast days. I know the women want to know. They stare at him in the wagon and as they pass I can see them talking to who ever they are with about it. Men, they don't over think how I might feel answering the same question all day long. (I don't care by the way.) They see a kid with two casts on being toted in a wagon and they want to know what's going on. I know there is a lesson to be found here. I will keep you updated on my findings.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
I don't know how much longer it should take now that it's approved but the "paperwork" part is done.
I believe the Lord spoke to me back in May that Miles will be totally restored before the wheelchair was delievered to my house.
My heart was pounding as I was reading the approval letter!!!!!
CONFESSION: Monday of this week I had the blinds in my living room opened and I could see cars passing. Well, I was sitting on the couch holding Miles when I saw a Medical Equipment truck driving slowly down my block. My heart stopped! I couldn't believe it! Soon I saw it turn around and drive away. I'm telling you I wish I could have a print out of the thoughts that passed through my mind during those 2 minutes. I wasn't sure if Miles was about to be healed before the guy rang the doorbell or if I had missed God. It was a whirlwind of emotions!
As I write this I wish that I could transfer what I'm feeling. I'm more excited than a kid waiting for Christmas! Even a kid that has snuck into the presents and already knows that he's getting the very present he's been begging for a year and a half to recieve! I mean, when I say fully restored I mean Miles will be running, walking, crawling, fighting, smiling, laughing, eating, pulling hair like any kid his age! What a front row seat I have to watch this miracle!
As I wait for this healing before the wheelchair I have left no Plan B.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
As you know Miles' legs are casted so that limits places like the park. I have to keep him in places with air conditioning because it's like he has little heaters on his legs. So, I was thinking about where I could go and then I remembered that I had 4 free Gatti coupons in my purse. Normally I would have dismissed that idea extremely quickly, but I was feeling brave.
When we got in the car I told the kids that I was planning on taking them to Gatti's, but that I was going to need a TON of help from them! They all eagerly agreed! On the way there I explained that we may play games and we may not. It just depended on if I thought it would be crazy or not. I warned them that even if they were good that we still might not be able to play games. I just wasn't sure. There was no complaining to my last comment so I was encouraged that their attitude was just right for such a trip. On the way there Spencer said, "You sure are brave Mom to take all of us kids with only one of you!" I smiled and agreed.
When we got there I was amazed at Joey's speediness. In a matter of seconds he had Melody, Jocie and Miles unbuckled from their car seats. As I was getting out the wagon for Miles to ride in the kids were waiting for me patiently at the end of the Suburban and Joey was opening up the door so I could get Miles out of his seat. I let out a breath of relief to see that this was going to be fun. Everyone was happy, everyone was helpful, and they were all pleasant to one another. As I put Miles in his little wagon Joey shut one of the back doors and Spencer shut the other and we were off!
We had to go in through the EXIT because the wagon wouldn't fit in their entrance. All the kids stayed with Miles while I paid. The people in line let me cut to the front since I had such a group with me. :) (perks) We got to a table that we could all fit in and I asked Joey if he was up for the challenge of being the "Drink Man". He said that he was. All the kids started telling Joey what drink they wanted, but I told Joey that he could pick all the drinks. He took 2 at a time and came back with his proud concoctions. After the first round of drinks I knew this was note worthy so I began to jot down all the drinks he made. Here's a list.
- Diet Lemon Pepsi
- Cherry Dr. Pepper
- Lemon Rootbeer
- Lemon Sunkist
- Vanilla Rootbeer
- Cherry Diet Pepsi
- Mountain Dew
- Vanilla Lemon Cherry Big Red
- Cherry 7-Up
The worst of these belonged to Melody and it was the Diet Lemon Pepsi. Every time she took a drink she wrinkled up her nose and said, "Yucky". She had to trade hers in for "One like Sessors". (Spencer's)
There was a total of 6 refills while we were there and one spill.
I let Joey get his own food. Spencer got his own food and that went so well I asked him to get a plate for Melody. He was happy to be a helper so he ran to get her pizza. He did make her plate with the kinds of pizza that she likes. He was so excited that he did it he raised the plate in the air to show me and ended up dropping all the pizza on the floor. He looked up at me with a big embarrassed grin them quickly picked it all up, put it back on the plate and served it to Melody. Part of me wanted to send him back in line with a clean plate and fresh pizza. That part of me didn't win. I was just glad to have three out of five plates made.
So we were sitting there and people kept looking at Miles and whispering about him to whoever they were sitting with. I was wondering why people just didn't ask what happened to him instead of trying to figure it out on their own. I found it humorous. You could see that they wanted to know, but they wouldn't dare ask. (I don't think I would have either.)
The rest of the lunch went well. I did forget to put Ranch on my salad, but I was already sitting down so I just ate the salad without any dressing. It wasn't too bad. The kids were so enjoyable that I decided games would be just fine as long as we all stayed together. Usually I let them run all over and gather them at the end, but this time that wasn't going to work. First of all I've never taken them all by myself, and secondly I didn't want to have to wheel Miles all over that place looking for 4 kids for the rest of the afternoon.
So, they agreed and we cashed in our $8 of quarters for tokens. We were playing the bowling game and Miles fell asleep in his pillowed wagon. It was so loud in there I think he felt right at home. While we were playing this lady came up to me and asked me what happened to Miles. I gave her the brief answer of his hip was dislocated so he had to have surgery. I never can tell what information people really want about Miles. The lady said something like. "Oh, poor baby" and then went off to chase her kid. Then she came back and wanted to know how it happened. I told her that he had tone issues in his legs that made it happen. She didn't understand so I explained that his muscles were tight and blah blah blah. She went off again and then came back with another question. I decided to give her the whole story about when Miles died in his sleep and all that. While I was telling her the story she stopped me and said, "Wait a minute. I think I've heard your story on the radio." She had heard the letter that Randy had sent into KGNZ for the Mother's Day Spa Getaway. It was a wonderful letter and I ended up winning the Spa Day. I told her that it was me and so then we started talking some more.
She told me that when she heard that letter it made her cry and it humbled her. She said that she only has two kids and she complains about what it takes to take care of them but compared to what I have to do it's nothing. She kept saying, "I can't believe I got to meet you!" It was like I was a celebrity or something. (That was nice for the ego.) She also said that the letter made me sound like the best mother in the world. (Again, nice for the ego.) Anyway, it was so nice to talk to her. She's already plugged into a church so I didn't invite her to ours, but I did give her my number so she could call and check up on Miles. I told her that I don't know why this whole thing happened but I do know that the Lord is going to totally restore and heal Miles. I told her that the next time I run into her Miles will probably be running around.
So I left there proud of my children, encouraged that these things that I'm going through is already an encouragment to others, and once again excited about Miles being healed by Jesus Christ!
Recovery for him yesterday was rough. He cried for almost a whole day. He was in so much pain. The nurses gave him every thing they could but it didn't help much. Today was much better! I've been keeping his pain medication in him and that's helped. He actually slept a little today and even smiled when he heard Spencer's voice.
I'm really glad to be home. I'm so tired from being at that hospital. Hopefully I will get some good rest tonight...between diaper changes! Poor Randy got sick at the hospital! He went to the Minor Emergency Clinic when we got home and they said he has strep throat!!!! He got a shot on the bottom so hopefully he will feel better sometime tomorrow.
I will have to send a picture of Miles soon. Believe it or not he looks adorable in his big red casts! Over half of his body is covered in red fiberglass. He has a big rod separating his legs. He looks uncomfortable, but I think he feels okay. I'm excited about what this cast is going to do for his legs and ankles. They're going to be so straight.
The doctor said to expect about a week of pain and then he should be feeling better. Already he's doing better today than he did yesterday.
So far the report is...It's a lot better than I thought it would be. It will take some adjustments but I know it's going to be okay.
The other day I was wondering what people at Wal-Mart were going to think when they saw this cute baby being hauled around in a wagon with his big red casts sticking up in the air. Randy and I began to think of funny T-shirts he could wear. Here's a few we came up with...if you have a good one email me because I may get a couple of these made. He won't be able to wear pants or shorts for several weeks so he needs some cute shirts. Here's what we came up with:
*Don't even ask!
*You should see the other guy!
*Give my Mommy money or she will break my arms to!
(I'm getting this one for sure!)
*BEWARE OF MELODY!
*They dared me to do it!
*They're serious when they say to keep arms and legs inside the roller coaster at all times!
*Please hold all questions and comments.
Well, I've got three kids in the bath tub, Randy and Miles to take care of, unpacking to do, laundry to sort and sleep to catch up on...I better go for now. Please continue to pray that Miles will adjust to sleeping on his back, and for his pain to go away quickly, and that Randy and I will quickly learn ways to take care of Miles the best.