Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Thankful

Thank you Lord that I had the privilege of being Miles's Mother. I'm so honored and thankful. I wouldn't have wanted it any other way. Even with all of the work, heavy hearted days and mystery I still got the better end of the deal. Taking care of Miles was my joy.
I miss him so bad it hurts. I can't explain how empty my arms feel. I just want to hold him. The thought of never feeling him next to me again seems unbearable. When I held him I could feel my whole body relax. There was something so pure about him that it would heal me as I held him. I need him here now to heal my broken heart.
I miss the physical part of taking care of him. I miss the feeling of accomplishment as I finished his routine. It began and finished my day. Now my days seems like an endless wave of Me. I'm already sick of Me.
What a special treasure he was. I will forever be grateful for the time I had with him. Thank you Lord for trusting me with Miles. You know how I loved him.

7 comments:

Christy said...

I can't begin to imagine how hard this is for you. Not sure what to say except that I continue to pray.

gal_6101 said...

I'm so sorry Brandi. Miles was also blessed to have you as his mother. We love you and are praying for you. The only thing I can think of again to say, is just remember..he is just away. You will get to be with him again...FOREVER.....angie

Jamie said...

Thank you and Randy for sharing Miles with our class. With just a smile, he was able to touch so many lives, young and old. The impact he had on us all, and will forever have, is more than you can imagine. I am sure this is a very hard time for you and your family. But, JOY comes in the morning! Thank you for sharing your precious son with us all and for continuing to allow us to mourn with you!

Fiver said...

:D

hollihoney said...

I finally have an account! I love you my friend, and know you are hurting. I am praying for you! You have been the best Mom ever, not just to Miles, but to your other four! I am so thankful that I know you and I am your friend!
Love ya:)

High in Demand said...

Yay Holli!!!!!

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

i love your attitude of gratitude. it really is the best way to look at life.

praying for you tonight, brandi. it is so very hard to be without the precious son that you have cared for daily.