Monday, March 24, 2008


Today I’m not in the mood to “endure all things.” Not that it really matters that I’m not in the mood. The Lord hasn’t asked me if I’m ready to have Miles healed, and go on with my medical equipment free life.
My life remote has not been delivered where I can push pause while I hide under my covers and try to find my center.
Vacation is not available.
Clones are creepy. Handy but creepy.
Unfortunately, I’m not very easy to replace.

James 1:2:4 drums in my spirit.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kids, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

So although I’m not “in the mood” to endure all these things, I have a higher calling. I’m after perseverance. I know when perseverance has finished it’s work in me that I will be mature and complete and not lacking in anything.

So now I just have to convince myself that I will indeed have perseverance finish its work in me.

Lord, you know my inner most being You know that I’m weary. I need your rest. I need completion in the works that you’ve started in me and my son. I’m ready for you to show off in Miles’ body! He needs you in every fiber of his being. So do I.


Francesca said...

I love you! I will pray!

Start World Hunger said...

do you ever wonder what James was refering to when he wrote that verse? was he going through something that resembled hell? was it the church or person he was writing to? i've been reading alot in corinthians and so much of it, i don't understand because i'm not quite sure about what was going on then. i'd like to know what James was going through. i know that you can persevere. the joy of the Lord is your strength.